will we ever be friends again?

What are we fighting over?
I simply do not know
You have me lost in thoughts
I'm tossing to and fro
Soon you will be gone
And you'll blame this all on me
What can I say or do
So the mistake we both can see
Why did you pick this fight
With me before you go?
I'm all alone and lost
But of this you do not know
If you don't say goodbye
Before you turn and leave.
What am I supposed to do
Except to cry and grieve?
I thought our friendship was special
I thought it meant a lot
If you felt the same way
Why are we stuck in this knot?
I don't like good-byes
But in this we have no choice
If you won't speak to me
the good-bye's will come from my voice
We've managed through other fights
But this one's not the same
I'm not having any fun,
And I want to stop this game.
I'm not good at writing
So I'll do my best with this
I have one last request
It is my goodbye wish
I wish that we were friends again
Before we say goodbye
Now that this is off my chest
I wait and sit and sigh

the shattered pieces on his porch

faded star
looking upon the world through the suns eyes
fighting the crystals of his tears that he cries
all he every fought for
all he every knew
now fades to dust in the wind
as the little boy inside dies
his whole world turns to stone
through eyes he dare not meet in dreams
searching for something thats not there
to make it feel hes not alone
the stories that wrote his sin
the people he left behind
in an old torn down building
that can not be rebuilt again

a world away

i still recall every summer night
like it was yesterday
the time would never end
and my friends were family
nothing mattered more
than the loyalty we had
now i'm a world away from everything we shared
i had something better
waiting ahead
i try to take control of my heart
i had something better
but i'll tear it down
and i'll tape it up
by my own design i fall
bring back the days
three story parking lot
the air is never dry
as the city falls asleep,
days bleed into the night
the tables set the stage
for a life of memories
but i'm a world away from everything

where did you go?

where do i begin
theres so much i want to say
but cant put into words
the way that i feel
if i could take back the past
and paint the future
then maybe i could live again
be the person i want to be
but i cant without you here

if i could make the sun fade away
make the moon and the stars dance
then i would do it for you
but living this life on just one chance
is not enough for you to stay

creation

if we were young forever
then angels are we
dancing into the heavens
beyond the moon and the stars
beyond the world of imagination
but days pass by
as our childhood grows smaller
we werent meant to love anymore
our world grows cold
as the flaming dagger pierces our hearts
all our hopes and dreams
were taken by the future
erased by the past
as the last leaf falls to the ground
what will its memory be of us?
living in this cold cruel life
the love just wasnt meant to last

HAPPY BIRTHDAY COURTNEY
u shine like the light from the sun
and always will
and every year i will tell you this
on your birthday

one day

if you never killed me
i would never be alive
if i never died
today i would not cry
be convinced i am crushed
as joy floods my eyes
you did your best
but you failed

i dont know what this is anymore!

All alone,
I sit,
I cry Surrounded by people
A group of people I should fit in with
But don't
No one asks why I cry
No one pays attention anymore
I am surrounded
I am alone
Where have all my friends gone
I ask myself
They were here one year
And gone the next
I look a part But feel secluded
A new voice,
a new sound One I hadn't heard before
One apart from my group
I found a new friend
You ask why I cry
I say no one will talk to me
You say you will talk to me
One little hello
from a stranger
Saved me,
gave me Hope
Gave me Happiness again
For the first time in a year I was truely Happy
but then you walked away

i try not to think about
all the pain i feel inside
did you know you used to be my hero
all the days you spent now seem so far away
and it feels like you dont care anymore
and now i try hard to make it
i just wanna make you proud
im never gonna be good enough for you
i cant stand another fight
and nothings all alright

please dont turn your back
i cant believe its hard just to talk to you
when you dont understand
im sorry.