why hope?

Hope is supposed to be a good thing in your life but why is
hope the only thing in your life that you have in bad situations.
Many people have hope and for the lucky few it really gets better.
But when it doesnt get better..why does hope tear you apart
with the feeling it all could get better while it didnt get better
for many years.

Why did my hope stay even without you here... hope that I would
get the same joy like I am with you here.
Hope did more bad then good..hope cant repay the loss of a very
good friend you shared it with...but hope lingers on.
Hope is a neverending pain because of the past.. the past that was
so nice but now its just a memory with a bad advice: hope

My only hope left is that my hope will go away.